Ebb and Flow

by Susan

I've been a Christian for so very long,

I know the scriptures, but I'm not strong.

satan has a way of playing a trick,

It's the ebb and flow of faith and it makes me sick.

Some days I am strong in the Lord and we can't be beat,

I pray, I study and will not admit defeat.

other days, I feel so unworthy, dirty and ashamed,

The bars too high, the race too long and I'm to blame.

I want to soar on the wings of eagles,

my faith be strong, not weary and feeble.

Each time I fall and let my Lord down,

Its harder to get up off this dirty hard ground.

I sink to my knees and cry out to Him,

Forgive me Father for I am so unworthy and full of sin.

I pray He sees my heart and understands,

That He will forgive me and take me in His loving hand.

Father, Help me keep my eyes on You,

To seek Your will in all I do.

Take my hand and hold me tight,

Stop this ebb and flow of faith, this very night.